You Are Going To Have

a Wonderful Day

This Lady Inspires!!!!

I was just saying yesterday to a friend, how I have been inspired by these “regular” people who don’t really have anything above and beyond in their lives, and some of them even have things that on paper, you’d say, “I don’t want that”– AND YET– AND YET– THEY ARE HAPPY! They are joyful! They have discovered a sort of secret to life that I am discovering, too, which is being happy “unconditionally”. ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚

It’s about loving and appreciating yourself and those around you, and loosening up on yourself about having things JUST SO, and then, ironically, when you relax and start enjoying the things around you, the things around you start to shift. It has to start with you first!!!!! And isn’t that amazing! We hold the power to change because all things in our life begin within ourselves!


This lady is quite an example of that. Something I have found is that there are truly happy people on there, living their lives and really enjoying what is before them. These people are not rich or famous, but they are happy and they are uplifting other people, and more importantly, themselves!!!! And isn’t that the key!!! They love themselves and those around them, and that has become to me, the most inspiring thing!! I have seen people appreciating things lately that in the past I would have said, “You’re crazy… are we looking at the same thing?” And then I started to realize… the prize is in the loving! The prize is in the feeling good! The prize is in the beholding and the appreciating and the love! That’s where the feeling-good is! The prize isn’t about trying to control what comes to you; it’s about controlling your emotions in a way that they perpetually feel good to you!! It’s about directing your mind toward what you want and believing it is coming and taking inspired action along the way.

It isn’t just this lady’s weight loss I find amazing, although I know that represents a shift in positive energy for her too, it’s also her relationship with her partner, the way she appreciates nature and Disney, the way she shifted her mind on vacation going into a swimsuit for the first time, and all other sorts of things that EVERYONE can relate to. ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ I love seeing happy people!!!

Sending you love on this beautiful day ๐Ÿ™‚ โค โค โค

The Number Of Times My Dog Gets Spotted In A Day

and given treats…

you don’t even want to know.

You Already Know

Hey. I wrote a book and I’m beginning writing another one. If you want a copy of this book sent to your email, email me at emilynolin2you@gmail.com and I’ll hook you up. ๐Ÿ™‚

I know that there’s a bit of like, what people get for free they don’t really value, but I mainly just did it for fun, and publishing has never really been my end-game; things tend to unfold naturally and organically and just the way that they should. I have money and I’ve been blessed with some incredible freedom in my life, so it’s never been about that or a business thing; when the world needs it, wants it, can’t live without it, etc., it will go into print.

So I’m continuing writing another book now, and while I’m beginning the process and the journey of that, I’m excited to offer you the adventure of reading this last book I wrote about two years ago– with the caveat that it IS old (like two years) and it is unedited; I’ve never gone back and read through it and I probably never will, and I probably never will with this new one or the next new one or the next new one, because I just don’t roll like that and I never have! Hahahaha. Even going to college for English. Editing and re-reading things once I’ve already written has always been like pulling teeth for me, and I’m proud of that because I like being someone who keeps moving forward.

That said, if you want a PDF copy of this old book, I’m more than happy to share with you ย and you can tell me what you think!!! It won’t change the fact that I KNOW I’m the best writer in the world, but hearing it from other people doesn’t hurt either! ๐Ÿ˜‰ ๐Ÿ˜‰ ๐Ÿ˜‰ ๐Ÿ˜‰

What I’m really excited is for the next one, so onward and upward with that.

Thank you all for subscribing; that is really really cool and always crazy to me when I see new people pop up. It’s really really fun. ALRIGHT on to some writing!!!


ALL THE LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!

Em ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚

Travel Scarves Help You Fly

I Love Movies

I love movies so much that when I was younger (and I don’t mean just a kid) and whenever I’d go see a movie in the theater, I INVARIABLY wanted to be JUST LIKE the protagonist female. Always. No matter what, I found something in it that I loved and wanted to be a part of. I went to school partly for film, because it was such a passion of mine, and on some level, still is.

I’m super focused and obsessed with being in my own head, my own imagination and dreams, and those are in part, amalgamations of movies I have seen, even trailers. I’m watching a movie right now (everyone who knows me knows that unless someone sits me down and makes me, my movie-viewing-spurts until I finish the actual film, can number in the nearly tens– such is my attention span for that).

I was watching the previews last night and this movie came on it. I am a HUGE Tim Burton fan– basically, anything he does, and Disney. Those are two of my all-all-all-time favorites combined. Plus, dogs. So like, this is really epic for me. This came out (and I saw it) before I got Blue. In seeing pieces of it now, I’m realizing how similar Blue is to Sparky, and how much our dreams really do come true. I wanted a relationship like Victor and Sparky, and that is what I got. I got a lovable, silly, barrel of a goofball dog who is my best, best friend for life.

Last night, in the short trailer/preview of this film, EVEN KNOWING HOW IT TURNS OUT– REALLY HAPPY ENDING– I had all I could do to get through the first part of it, when Sparky dies. I don’t think I’m spoiling it for you because it’s pretty freaking obvious that like, that’s the premise of the movie.



^^ I just noticed Blue has THREE of these blankets made for him. (Okay two, and one which I share, which really means I have given to him, too.)

I just want to say to you that movies are my heart, Disney is my heart, Tim Burton is my heart, but mostly, my dog is my heart.

I love my dog SO much and if you have a dream out there that you’re wanting to come true, know that it CAN and it WILL come true in full fruition because to me, my dog is ever-living proof that that can happen, and that it does. I dreamed of him literally my whole life, and having him is everything I ever hoped that it would be, and more. And I know for sure for sure every single day that he was LITERALLY made to be with me and live with me and have this life with me.

He is one of the best things that has ever happened to me in the world and the love and life I experience with him is unlike anything I had ever known prior to him being in my life.

I was thinking of this the other day in the shower, and I think of it a lot, even if I have a family, I don’t think I will ever, ever, ever have the relationship with my kids that I have with my dog because every single other person in the world, necessarily exists for themselves. They have their own things to unfold. And that’s the way it should be.

My dog lives here almost exclusively for me, to be with me. He doesn’t really have an agenda of his own (besides treats). He isn’t here to get things done (besides eating treats) or to be a certain way (besides as close to fat as he can possibly be); he’s just here to enjoy life (and eat treats) and to love and to be with me as my best friend (who gives him… you get the idea). The bond I have with my dog is unbreakable and unlike anything I have ever, ever, ever, ever, ever discovered before. The responsibility, the honor, and the duty you feel to someone who has dedicated their entire existence to being with you, is a loyalty I have to him that I will never be able to fully express.

Saying I am obsessed with my dog is like saying heroin addicts are obsessed with H. It’s not that you’re obsessed with the IDEA of the thing; it’s that you’re fucking addicted to the thing that gives you that feeling. You’re addicted to feeling good, and some things tend to bring it out of you more than others.

It’s not that I am obsessed with him; I am FANATICALLY fucking appreciative about the way he makes me feel and the literal door to the realm he opened when he walked into my life. He changed my way of being, my way of viewing the world, and being in it, in a way that was like opening another door to a way of living I had always wanted yet never known.

Since him coming in, my life has single-handedly and dramatically changed for the better, and I got way more selfish and discovered way more of what was truly important to me. It wasn’t making other people happy, it was being myself, being true to myself. He’s brought a focus to my life that daily I hone in on more and more and more. When you discover the true meaning of happiness is love, then the rest can purely follow from that.

Here is the trailer for this film, from 2012, from a PHENOMENAL artist of all-time about a boy and his dog, Halloween-themed things, and SO many other things I truly deeply adore.



This dog deserves every single castle in the world. (That’s the excuse I always use for buying castles.)

He re-centered and re-calibrated my life and helped meย to believe in a higher power, a higher good, that things are meant to be working out for me, that dreams really do come true, and that life is meant to be magically good. OF COURSE I’M FUCKING ADDICTED TO HIM. AND OF COURSE, HE COMES BEFORE ALMOST ANYTHING ELSE.

FUCKING DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I’m a pragmatic person, and I know what works. And since having my dog, basically, my world has revolved around ME and MY OWN PREFERENCES a lot more, because he gave my preferences a body and a focus and a home, where I could externally look at him and say, “Yeah, I’ve got to do this thing for him.” But ULTIMATELY, always, it was me doing that thing for myself, and that’s the art that he has taught me. Is do everything for yourself, what YOU want to do, and the rest of your life falls effortlessly into place.

YOU ARE HERE IN THIS LIFE TO DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. He literally taught me that, when I saw that caring for him and doing what I want to do, was simultaneous. And what is possibly more important in this life, than caring for another living being of a thing? You don’t need anyone to hire you, pay you, or ask you to do that; innately, you know it has value and worth, regardless of whether anyone else, for the rest of your life, ever acknowledges it or not.

Having Blue taught me the value of ignoring the values of the world and focusing on the ones naturally born within myself. And I guarantee you that’s how I become the richest woman in the history of the world.

But I digress.

Caring for him has NEVER been work. It has always been 10,000% of what I have chosen, and what I have wanted to do. What I have been honored and blessed to do.

I have always been very aware of that.

And as for you, thank you for being a part of this world, which gave me my dog. The fact that you exist in the world, means to me, you had some part in it, however many degrees of separation that may seem. Ultimately, it’s never very far or separate at all.

He has taught me more about life, who I am, what I want, where I am going, how lucky I am, how loved I am, how amazing I am, how amazing life is, how good life is all meant to be, and so much more that defies being put into words. I love this fucking dog SO much and I’m appreciating this world that allowed me to have this life that allowed and allows me to have him.

Every single day that I wake up, I acknowledge to myself how lucky I am that he is with me, he is alive, and that I get to live this life THE WAY I WANT TO, THE WAY I INTENDED, just being me, and living with him. I’m super FUCKING lucky and I made it that way. I planned it that way, I made it that way, and I appreciate knowing that, too.

Plan for what you want.

Expect for what you want.

Be clear within yourself on what you desire, and see nothing other than that.

What you want is way too fucking important, to fuck with anything else.


In Keeping With Tradition Of Being The Best

Beyonce raised the pregnancy announcement bar, and I’m setting it higher now than ever before, with not only an arguably higher-concept photo shoot, but a non-pregnancy announcement one, to boot. (We can still be friends, there is room for us all here on top of the world.)

Subjects (and period cup users) REJOICE!

As long you’ve been waiting, here are my edited non-pregnancy announcements (hashtag, blessed) from a formal VOGUE photoshoot with Annie Leibovitz last evening, directed by Wes Anderson, co-starring Adrien Brody.

You may see some similarities from the shoots she’s done with Angelina Jolie. That’s to be expected. We have very similar aesthetic, and people often tell me I remind them of her.

These are preliminary before Wintour approves them for cover of the September issue this year, but I know she won’t mind me sharing these with you here first.

Single-handedly giving new meaning to the words “red cup”.

Oh, in the last two ^^, I was contemplating if THIS is ACTUALLY what JK Rowling meant by “Goblet of Fire”. ย (You know how I won my Oscar is THAT.)

Look What I Found!!!

I mean WHO!

I was not dressed for the occasion!!!

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Skeleton Jack IS KING of the Pumpkin Patch, you know!!!!!!!!

Okay Now That It’s The Monday Tomorrow

Get ready for a haunted castle and some Sesame Street!!!!!!!

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This guy knows the words


I just realized in this photo, Like He is LITERALLY

up my ass

โค my heart in my throat over how much I love him. It’s like an invisible string is always connecting us. I feel like our energies are so connected he is actually a part of me.

But then he like does some asshole move and I’m going to kill him and all the flowery shit goes out the window.



It’s how you know I’m a “real” mom.

Brady + Physics + Pure Positive Energy

Love him. This is a really great interview.

I don’t follow football, but some things are applicable all over the board. I always love listening to positive people speak. It’s not a matter of the vocation, it’s about how tuned in they are.

He says:

“I’ve had a lot of experiences and I know what’s important and I know what’s not important and tend to use a very positive outlook in order to shape my own emotions and feelings. I use a lot of things for motivation.”

It’s always the same concept and energy and application.

It’s literally mathematical in its precision.

If you ever wonder how or why someone has gotten to be where they are, just listen to an interview with them. And conversely, you can start changing the way you think and speak, to effect the change you wish to desire. โค

“Because we’ve had success, a lot of teams don’t like that … It’s a good problem to have.
If they don’t like you, you’re probably doing something right!”
“People who are gonna grouch and groan are gonna grump either way; may as well be because YOU have what YOU want.
– You can quote ME on that one. ๐Ÿ™‚

You know that saying about you become who you hang out with? The beauty of the internet is that you have access to basically ANYBODY at your fingers. You get to choose whose speaking and ideas saturate your brain. You get to choose what to think and who to listen to and who to agree with and who feels right to you. It doesn’t have to be dependent on your “reality”. You have access to everything in the world!!!! You get to decide. YOU get to choose. You don’t have to listen to the people around you.

You get to decide who influences you.

Choose the direction of your life based on how it feels when you think it.

That’s how you know what is true in your heart.

ANYTHING is possible. ANYTHING you can imagine, is right within reach.

If you can think it, it’s yours.



You’re not here to fuck around with shit that doesn’t vitalize and interest you or with other people’s limited ideas of what is possible or real or necessary or right.

This isn’t purgatory.



I’m now going to go sip some tea in the garden surrounded by butterflies and the sound of Leonardo DaVinci playing the harp whilst I make a genteel watercolor with a paintbrush made from unicorn tail hairs, seated upon a mushroom, while I catch up with my neighborlyย human-size Caterpillar.

I Can’t Say This In Enough Ways

Thank you. I love you. I truly appreciate you being here.

And also, this.


(She’s not selling him, he’s like her biological kid, but somehow it never gets old.)


Have you guys ever heard of ASMR? Both people below, with links, explain it on their sites. You really know what it is by EXPERIENCING. I actually found it googling something completely different and the two people I have listened to (like, actually listened to) in this group are the very beautiful and regal GentleWhispering and more recently I discovered the charming and very pretty ASMRDarling, on YouTube. Some people say they REALLY help relax them.

I get tingles from listening to them, most of the time. Like, tingles in my head. From tapping sounds and certain hand movements and soft noises. It’s almost like it takes your attention out of your body and into your ears. It’s quite an interesting thing. It’s very pleasant and relaxing and focuses you in a really general way, which is sort of like a meditation.

Those two ladies can explain it to you. ๐Ÿ™‚ ^^^^

Then there’s this other guy, Tony, who is straight up HILARIOUSLY funny in this one. His creativity is FOR REAL. I was literally laughing out loud at this. I was like, spitting on my phone.

Something I appreciate maybe even more than the calming feeling of these videos, is the CREATIVITY and IMAGINATION these people endlessly endlessly endlessly eternally display.

They are AMAZING. I think that’s literally half of the awe of these things for me, is seeing the brilliance of these people taking on roles and the dedication they have to their craft.

I sometimes like to relax and sometimes I don’t want to relax at all, I WANT to be going 100,000 MPH. But sometimes these are really nice when I’m in a certain kind of mood.

They really do work for relaxation for me, for sure, if that’s something I want in the moment.

Lately I’m too gung-ho that I don’t want to settle down at all ever but you know. BALANCE IS THE KEY… either balance or completely black and white, pedal to the metal ridiculousness extreme.

(mostly, I choose the latter.)

This is her (Maria’s, GentleWhispering) most recently uploaded one. I haven’t finished this yet. I love her nails. HER NAILS ARE NATURAL THEY ARE AMAZING DON’T ASK ME HOW IT’S DONE. WITCHCRAFT. MAGIC. DEALS WITH THE DEVIL FOR SURE.

Here is one from Taylor (ASMRDarling)

Some wonderfully talented, amazing people. I’m sure there are many, many more. ๐Ÿ™‚

Big Fat Baby Boy


The First Line Is All I Saw

When I read this, I just started laughing out loud. Not because anybody died, clearly, but just because my brain just focused on the first line.


Stand Up Comedy Pioneer Dick

That is totally me. That’s my spirit guide. And I’m sure that man is having a grand old time flying. Being a stand-up comedian, I’m sure he loved that first line, too.

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This Made Me Really Glad


Kelsey was just telling me the other day

how she was re-reading this and literally laughing out loud and how it’s one of the funniest stories she has ever read (which, isn’t saying anything because she has never actually written down anything she’s said– she is one of THE funking funniest people I have ever laid comedian eyes on). She is so freaking hilariously funny she makes me sheet my pants.

Not literally but figuratively. She literally is comic gold. And I think it’s because she isn’t trying to be funny at all, she’s literally just regaling stories from her life, and they are fuking so…. I don’t even have words to explain it.

But anyway here goes. Here is one of her favorites.

Happy Birthday! (AKA When My Sister Slept With My Ex-Boyfriend)


Okay so before I post you this long one

I have a funny little story here

So probably like okay this may have been a month or so ago, I never know the time, although I am pretty okay with dates, but my sister works with this person at her pharmacy whom I’ve met before and her name is Trish(a). But let’s say Trish. And at one point, we were texting about her, about a month ago, and I asked Kelsey (my sister) what Trish’s name was. I couldn’t remember. Because Trish is having a baby, so Kelsey is getting her (has now gotten her) this really beautiful rocking chair, recliner, swivel thing, that also glides. (Trust me, I’ve now been shopping for these things for weeks.) So anyway. We were talking about that and I said I forgot what her name is, is it Tessa or Trisha? (Or something to that effect).

And a day or two later, Kelsey replied, “Trish”. When I saw that, I didn’t really pay much attention, except for the fact that it confirmed it was the Trish one instead of the Tess one. So I continued calling her Trisha, which I thought was what Kelsey had said.

So a week or two later she comes up for a visit, and the chair and the baby shower keep coming up, and I keep referring to her as Trisha. And at a family gathering of some sort, Kelsey laughingly calls me out for continuing to call her Trisha, even though she’d “Clearly” in her mind, told me that her name was TRISH.

Basically, I thought she was choosing one of the options I’d laid out, and she was going off-menu, but I still thought she was choosing one of the options I had laid out.


So the entire rest of the time, I kept making fun of Kelsey (or myself) I don’t know which, and I kept calling her Trisha. And then even at one point, SHE started calling her Trisha (by accident, which really made it funny). And it was this stupid, silly, dumb big thing that we kept laughing at. I even took her baby shower invitation and posted it on my fridge, and wrote an A at the end of “Trish”. And told Kelsey her family had gotten it wrong.

To give you the picture, this was like an on-going weeks thing. The fact that it was SO stupid made it all the more funny to me. Especially when my sister came to visit and in person explained that I’d blithely overlooked her input to the name, and continued calling her whatever I’d originally guessed.

So if you know me, I tend to run jokes into the ground and I’m still laughing at them LONG after people think they are funny, in fact, people are usually wanting to kill me by then, and I’m still spewing spit all over my phone screen from laughing (this is usually text). So it continued with Trish. So anyway yesterday was the day Kelsey went to Trish’s baby shower and she sent me a really cute picture of the two of them.

Then today she wakes me up with our family group text, which I’ll relay for you here.


Hey Guys :)

Do any of you people read or listen to Abraham Hicks? I was listening to this wonderful lady reading astrology on YouTube and she was a decidedly positive person. I didn’t know exactly what it was about her, but she had this REAL WORLD positivity that I really just enjoyed, and she danced at the end of every video and she was SO funny and real and sweet. I don’t remember her name now but I feel like she had red hair.

Maybe I can find her and offer you a post. I still always think in terms of astrology because I think there is so much to be gained and I feel like it’s helped me in terms of understanding people and giving them the benefit of the doubt. At the–

OMG I found her. The more I was looking I was like damn she doesn’t do it anymore. Okay it wasn’t Debbie, it was Kelley. I realllllly like her.

“We’re all broadcasting”.

Okay so listen. I haven’t been back to listening to her or her website, SINCE finding Abraham like three years ago (!!!). I’m posting a link, my sun sign is Taurus. You probably might have a different sign. But you’ll get her gist and also you can click her name and find any video she’s done for your sign. Her energy is really, really cool.

Now I haven’t heard or seen anything from her because basically, I was on her site– I was really drawn to her energy, and I was on her site I think back in October, as I said, three years ago. I was on her site and I saw this quote from this “person” named “Abraham”. It was a quote from this person named “Abraham” and I saw one line or two, and I was like, HOW DO I NOT KNOW WHO THIS PERSON IS? Because I knew instantly that they knew their shit, and I pride myself on knowing everyone who knows their shit. To this day, there’s only about three people at the top of the game, who, in my opinion, really, truly know their shit. And maybe a few of them who are dead. And Abraham is one of them, and to me, they are far and away the most fully-all-encompassing comprehensive one.

If you think you don’t have something to give, then the TRUTH of the fact that you think you don’t have something to give, is something worth giving.

I want to say on one hand that they have changed my life, and then I think back to 10th or so grade, when I used to counsel people via AIM on their relationships and such. I don’t believe in giving anything power, outside of yourself, and at the same time, you can give yourself credit for allowing such an influence into your life. There are many people whom I have recommended Abraham to, when I felt like they were asking me for answers or for something that I felt like Abraham could say in that moment better than me, and I think they are sometimes not in vibrational frequency-field of receiving it or seeing its value or feeling it, or knowing it, and that is incredibly cool; it’s just as it should be. There is really no need in any which way.

So I feel really blessed to have these teachings in my life, and I can see, looking back over my life, I have UTILIZED their teachings, without ever hearing a word, YEARS before they came into my conscious awareness, because it is something that we all inherently know. I was going to say “deep down” but it really isn’t even so deep. The truth of the matter is that any time we are feeling less than really good, it’s our guidance system telling us that we are out of sync with that larger part of ourselves, which is what Abraham is. So it isn’t some really like esoteric thing. It’s actually close to you as hands and feet, or however that saying goes. :p

Another interesting thing to me is that my friends and family know this about me, that Steve Pavlina is kind of the person who I’d say kind of “started” me on this path. I was researching how to get better sleep YEARS ago, and came across one of his articles on it, and he was the most Vanguard, free-thinker I had ever known. I always said that if I had found him first, I probably would have never gone to school (college).

And ironically, come to find out, after I’d already heard of Abraham and by then gotten at least one of their books (now I think I have four, plus I think four sets of their cards and their three Sara books– which are absolutely amazing)– the first book of theirs I got was Ask and It Is Given,ย and come to find out– Steve Pavlina had done a book review of that exact book, and he may have spoken more about it than just that one post– and I checked the date, and he HAD written about Abraham and the book, prior to the time of me finding his website.

So it wasn’t a matter of the fact that it wasn’t there. And this is kind of amazing to me, because that’s actually ESSENTIALLY the whole teaching of theirs in a nutshell, is that what you aren’t a vibrational match to, you cannot see. Literally down to the example of finding a lost item. If you believe it is lost, it will be to you. And their explanation of it, which they can do much better than me– they’ve done some real-life examples of Esther missing things that were literally right under her nose, and sometimes to me, those examples serve as THE MOST poignant illustration of the way energy, materiality, manifestation and Law of Attraction work. Things like powder brushes and gold pens and iPads and things like that– all of those examples they’ve used with her, have stuck with me. Especially their answer on time to a questioner, regarding a story they told about her airport parking pass (or something to that effect) that she lost in her purse on board. I’ll see if I can find it and I’ll post it back here when I do. Or I’ll make another post and link this one to it. Or I’ll make another post and link it to THIS. HAHAHAHA. WHO THE FEK KNOWS.

So I was not a vibrational match to their teachings, just yet, even though they’ve been in existence long before my spiritual journey began. And everything is always expounding upon itself, and it took me exactly that much time and experience and expansion and lining up, to get to the point where I was ready for their messages and their books.

Something funny is that I was going through my parent’s basement a couple of weeks ago, maybe three, and I had pretty much, or so I believed, recycled all of my old journals.

But I found this looseleaf paper (which I have since recycled because I am a little bit like a tidal wave, about out with the old, in with the new). That I had written exactly two months shy of my 18th birthday, and it was literally one of the most brilliant pieces I have ever read. There was also a letter from the same date, to my boyfriend– I seem to have a lot of notes written to my boyfriend that I apparently never sent– but BOTH of them, but ESPECIALLY the one to myself, were highly enlightened and evolved.

And I think the amazing thing to me is that, this was before my “spiritual trail” or anything like that; I was still in high school and mostly surrounded myself with that level of reading (I never actually read the assigned reading, but the books I took out of the library were nothing spiritual or new-age or mystical at all).

The first line was, “I want to create my own reality”. And then I went on to say something like, and I want to focus and follow through on it, so that it becomes real for me, and so that it’s a steady streaming for myself, a place that I can go, and always tap into. (I’m paraphrasing).

I went on to say SO many things that Abraham says, and although I wasn’t quite speaking from the level of non-resistance that they hold, I was very, very, very close well on the trail. The subjects I covered and the things I discussed, it was a front and back side college-ruled page, filled– it really blew my mind. The biggest point for me here is that I realized that I was actually thinking this way long before I gave myself CREDIT for thinking this way. In other words, I had this understanding and this knowing, within me all along. And I was in tune with it so much more then I ever realized. I would say the vibration of this letter was still a little more ASKING in the equivalency, in other words, I was subjecting my ideas to the universe, in hopes of receiving some kind of answer, and my submissions were, largely, if not somewhat off, vibrationally-sound.

Something about writing that I have always loved, and looking back on it really isn’t one of those things (except for in that example), is that it puts you in touch with yourself. And I think for me, like, I paint and I draw sometimes and I write and I imagine and sometimes I speak and record that in spoken word journals and all of those things, but the reason I do it isn’t to create something or to produce something for the world. The reason I do it isn’t to make money in terms of XYZ (although I know I’m going to be very very very very very incredibly rich, like probably the richest woman in the history of the world– I will tell you that so far, no body’s net worth who exists currently, is what I consider to be a whole lot of money. John D. Rockefeller had an adjusted net worth of $400B, so I base everything off that.).

The reason I do anything is just for the flow. I used to do everything (literally almost EVERYTHING) for the effect. And now, in the more and more of me purifying my vibration, I find that I do next to nothing, close to nothing, IDEALLY AND HOPEFULLY nothing, for the effect, and EVERYTHING for the way it feels in the way I am doing it. That’s how I know what I am doing. You have zero control over the effect, and 100 percent control of the energy you are putting out. If I make a painting, it’s for the flow, not the effect. Once I’m finished, it’s done. If I want to buy this or be that or do that, it’s a given. No questions asked. By the universe. There’s nothing out there I need to fix or prove or do. I have to line up with it, vibrationally. You can’t prove your worth to “god”. You can’t PROVE your worth beyond what you already are. You CAN to human beings, but you cannot to the universe. And the universe is where you get everything from, anyway.

Humans are just sometimes the deliverers.

Expect it, believe it, it’s yours. This is what I’m working on, for all of the rest of my days!!!

I have another post coming up just now but I’m going to break these into two.

new love

alien greeeeeeeen

Thank You Guys So Kindly

for the reading

i was just up all night fishing with my pal. he always makes me laugh so much and i don’t have any idea why. he drives me crazy and i love him so much!!!!!!!!!!! just wanna bite him and melt all over him and snort him through my nose.

i am now headed off into dreamland after a dreamy shower and washing of my hair which always feels so good YEAH!!!!! YOU JUST GOTTTA LOVE IT

day after the show—> week


my dad and his friends camped out in the yard and when i woke up i got this full randomly placed new coffee out of the deal (it didn’t have all those stains on it when i originally took it)

i had just been thinking, “I could go for a coffee” and bam. there were two!!!

they must have gotten up at like 5 am to leave but my dad came back over later in the day to clean up more stuff. we had fun.



all kinds of artistic


You Can Tell Who’s In Town


Getting Ready For The Show

and bikinis

so psyched with these suits

i’m a genius at color

this shampoo is so amazingly sick so happy with it and also this nars matches perfectly (easy lover)

blue follows me around and tells me if things look good or not with his eyes

the leopard one is old school from graduation, it’s from MIAMIIIII everything else is walmart the other day– fucking most awesome suits in the world

So In Love With This Dog

i walked outside and he’s just laying there like this

for no reason

he has a bed with three blankets on the porch and three options for chairs with cushions on them at the neighbors, but apparently the driveway looked good

sometimes he just wants to be like a regular dog, ya’ll

sometimes he just wants to be like a regular dog

My Dad Just Called Me To Tell Me

mayer’s on top of his game

according to boston


this is what it looks like when he calls from the landline

(it’s his dog Noon’s home, really)

UPS Guy > Mayer


our UPS guy is always giving blue treats, even when he doesn’t have a package

so Blue, i learned, once when we were on a walk, even when we aren’t at home, thinks every UPS truck is basically the ice cream man, and he runs up to it and tries to ingratiate himself into getting their treats

whenever he even sees a UPS truck now, wherever he is, he gets really excited

so unless Ted’s driving a UPSser, Blue probably wouldn’t have cared

for the record, we were going out for fries but we happened upon the tour bus

normally when we see that many busses it means me and blue decided to camp, but apparently this time it means mayer & company are in town

i just ordered almost $10 worth of mcdonald’s food, ate half of each thing, and now i feel like i’m going to throw up.

and you think my life is glam.

(i mean, it is. but only the part where i throw up.)


Our Friend John Got A Little Cocky

Lmbrgni Mrcy

yeah i’m getting one




I’m Playing Ball With Him

and all of a sudden i look up and he’s over here

i freaking love freaking adore freaking love freaking adore freaking love freaking adore

this dog

In Between

actually this video was taken me first waking up to a house load of people and blue playing with the puppy

seeing my dog with a dog being a dog is a weirdest thing cause he’s just a person to me

oh yeah actually what really happened is my mom woke me up at like 8 something AM and i was up until three thirty or so, she wakes me up knocking on my bedroom door, telling me that she found me another shirt in the park and i was waking up and literally saying i feel like this is a dream (cause she came over first thing the morning the day beforeย that with a shirt for me from the park– dave matthews played two nights). this one i ended up giving to my sister, and ended up nabbing this GD sweatshirt in place of the shirts we got for my dad at magic moon which he would not wear. (pistachios, instead).


watermelon margarita



Sewing Outside

It’s Rare For Me To Go Out And Actually Eat

carried this home in the car

my neighbor came over and started eating it for me

people keep offering me onion rings today.

Father’s Day And Fried Fish

my dad wanted to go out for fried fish tonight on a whim so i said sure

i was listening to LFO west side story on repeat


i forgot to turn it off before we left…

so blue just listened to that for like an hour and a half.

sorry blue. i owe you one buddy.

earlier before

him sleeping early this morning

he’s in every picture when he knows we’re leaving. he’s only NOT in one of these (and he’s not in the lambo)




my dog’s favorite flavor dish soap is on sale at walmart

nuts for my dad because he wouldn’t wear the grateful dad shirts we got him for fathers day (good taste doesn’t run in my family, what can i say)

this seltzer is godly

okay this thread will change your life

egyptian cotton thread

i am a thread snob and a fabric snob and i’m re-sewing my hat even more and i realized i wanted pure cotton thread and i am fucking obsessed with this thread i can’t stop touching myself with it

it’s effing goddamn amazing

i fucking love raw natural materials

like this gain dish soap, honey berry hula is a real fruit

egyptian cotton thread all the mo fuckin way

Made This Tonight


Girl At The Rock Show

this song this video, FILMED ON MY BIRTHDAY IN PART


kelsey came today

He Has To Stand Right There



love this dog so much

I Said It Would Be A Winner And It Is

and if anybody can make dave matthews look cool, it’s me

so i’m doing it

my mom found this for me today in the park after the show last night. it’s a sick shirt i really like this blend.

going to cash in lottery ticket todayyyyyy

i know how to win the lottery now

When You Are Hungry

a whole ice cream cake really comes in handy

i kind of also wanted a real one (cake not ice cream) but i only have two hands and i was also buying queso so maybe tomorrow i will adventure out into the wonderful world of cakes without ice cream.

my sister is coming to stay with me this weekend so she can help me eat this cake. i usually end up making one when she arrives but i’ll probably be too busy winning at things.

i couldn’t go on eating it under the guise of a non-factual day.

ARE YOU kidding ME

I’M GETTING ready to go back out to the store because i need an ice cream cake and i’m not even kidding you’ve got to be fucking kidding me

i’m watching this video with perez and his mom

let me tell you the last time i had carvel and/or ice cream cake was like


i can’t remember the last time that it was


8:09 in this interview: GODDAMNIT

well i’m going to get one now

jesus effing chrissssssss

I was like, “After I watch this video i’m going to get carvel”


i love this lady so much she is so stinking unbelievably adorable

she is so stinking adorably unbelievably CUTE

if you are watching the video, at least skip to the 10:00 mark because i swear that thing i have watched like three times and i literally laugh out loud every time

but the whole thing is worth watching

i’m waiting out my hunger until this video is finished

by the way i need ice cream AND cake

by the way this video is fucking HILARIOUS






taking pics to send to my mom cause I’m so proud of my rug, i mean my new bed


I High Speed Followed This Dog

and while i was buying shower curtains (and the world’s sickest ever bath mat– pictures to go) I met the CRAZIEST lady I have ever met in my life. She was a freaking nut job in the best absolute way. That was really cool. she just started talking to me about the randomest but kind of relevant and craziest ass shit ever for no reason at all.

dude i find the sickest shit. i got these most amazing shower curtains i have ever seen– one of them in the color i was envisioning. plus this bat mat which is off the hook, from portugal

that’s what i always look for in a bath mat– from portugal.

here’s the website for the bath matย https://www.piscatextil.combbbc35_42a9455f187f45a6bba0c4da355ef72c~mv2_d_3000_2000_s_2


i have greatest taste

these photos are only confirming it but then i already knew it so what/ev.

this dog was so freaking adorably cute

what else

oh yeah going to hang my shower curtains now

Inside Day

so excited going out to do some things and getting things for the house!!!!

colors for the day

pants by cat and jack bongo by music festival in maine


62 degrees with clouds